Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: I have been so lifted up this week looking at the beautiful family I have around me and sharing time with them, hearing their hearts and breathing in their love. Sometimes we focus on what we’ve lost in the fight to gain ourContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

A Puritanical Lead

The book the Scarlet Letter really says it all. The novel tells the story of Hester Prynne, a woman who conceives a daughter through an affair and then struggles to create a new life of repentance and dignity. Hypothetically, it shows the estranged woman redeeming herself through her silence. By paying for her sin throughContinue reading “A Puritanical Lead”

The Innocent Judged

Maybe the most wicked piece to childhood trauma is the judgment of the innocent. You open your mouth to tell the secret and you receive condemnation – not from God, but man. “Don’t tell,” is the conviction of the world. “We don’t want to hear you,” they continue. “Keep that ugliness hidden.” These unconscious judgmentsContinue reading “The Innocent Judged”

Interview Transcript: Episode 1

I had an lovely reader on Reddit transcribe the video interview. Her belief is that many would rather read the transcript. This interview is from the murder all the way through to her burial and back home. Here it is. Blessings to you today! WARNING: The following transcript contains descriptions of sexual and physical violence. Continue reading “Interview Transcript: Episode 1”

Captured by Commitment

I’ve lived a squirrely life at times. What else could I expect? And then came the time when I committed to better things. I heard God’s voice calling to me in the desert, so to speak. I was parched and thirsty and in need of much repair. The thing I liked about being squirrely wasContinue reading “Captured by Commitment”

Just Hold On

Sometimes the only strength I had left in my being was just the ability to get through one more day. So, that’s just what I did. I held on for one more day. When I was going through the memories of the murder through nightmares, flashbacks, and work with my counselor, I lived in aContinue reading “Just Hold On”

The Poisoned Tongue of Deception

Incest is born and then covered up. It’s what makes the territory so treacherous to walk out of. My parents feared my voice. I could ruin them with it. So, they hide me in their lies. They told me time and time again I would be unable to withstand them and tell the truth. NoContinue reading “The Poisoned Tongue of Deception”

The Cost of Healing Delayed

As I tell my story, I have people tell me theirs. Often they add, “I know there is abuse in my past, but I’m not going there.” I think the commonly-held-belief is, that if the secret stays hidden, it will cost nothing to hide. This is downright wrong. The cost is vast and more expensiveContinue reading “The Cost of Healing Delayed”