An Avalanche of Fear

Fear seldom walks with me today, but yesterday it was all I knew. The message that is left embedded in your soul coming through childhood trauma is fear. Fear of being hurt. Fear of trusting. Fear of the unknown and fear of the known. But, fear is a liar. I used to believe that myContinue reading “An Avalanche of Fear”

The Cost of Healing Delayed

As I tell my story, I have people tell me theirs. Often they add, “I know there is abuse in my past, but I’m not going there.” I think the commonly-held-belief is, that if the secret stays hidden, it will cost nothing to hide. This is downright wrong. The cost is vast and more expensiveContinue reading “The Cost of Healing Delayed”

Creatures of Habit

God gets such a bad wrap for the works of bad people. I don’t get it. God did not crawl into bed with you and rape you. He didn’t hit you and make you succumb to His wishes. He’s gentle and kind. He calls out to you tenderly with mercy and grace. Yet, time andContinue reading “Creatures of Habit”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Injustice. Injustice. Injustice. When you’re waiting for a sense of justice for a crime you’ve witnessed or endured, that is a miserable kind of waiting because you don’t know what you’re waiting for. What will the outcome be? Will justice be served orContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. When you are waiting for the birth of a child, the anticipation of “what you are waiting for” is the center of the experience. That’s an easier kind of waiting and the blessing gained through that waiting is tremendous. WhenContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Bonds with Mayhem

Legally speaking,┬ámayhem┬árefers to the gruesome crime of deliberately causing an injury that permanently disfigures another. Deliberately causing injury. These are the people I grew up with. It’s no stretch of the imagination to understand why I then picked this same bred to create new bonds with. It’s all I knew. Oh, I was bonded withContinue reading “Bonds with Mayhem”

Swimming Upstream

True healing made me feel like a fish out of water. A comfortable coat of denial was what I grew up with; it’s old feelings enveloped me for years. Stepping away from the comfort of making up stories that I could live with only happened when my life stalled time and time again with dysfunctionalContinue reading “Swimming Upstream”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Yesterday I took a walk down the same street I walked when I was five. The street led to my elementary school. By the time I was five, I had seen such treachery and been through so much abuse, I questioned yesterday whyContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

A Gate to Justice

A house with a white picket fence, two kids, a cat, a new car and a dedicated husband of 40 years just wasn’t in the cards for me. I’ve been married four times, have two children, no animals and life full of love. My first husband not only cheated on me every chance he could,Continue reading “A Gate to Justice”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: The courage God has given me to tell my stories is a gift beyond measure. On my journeys I meet so many that just cannot, or will not, confront their stories with the full, unadulterated truth. They erect a fantasy where the truthContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”