Defeat Desires

Coming from childhood sexual abuse I brought with me a plethora of desires that I hadn’t conceived. Instead of playing with dolls as a small girl, I found ways to masturbate and manipulate the sexual parts of me. It was what I was taught. Anal curiosity came from sodomy as sure as watching my momContinue reading “Defeat Desires”

Anguish Squelched

When you give voice to your pain it suppresses the outputĀ of anguish. What do I mean? The last time I spoke with my mother and oldest sister, I gave words to my anguish. So much so I sounded like a screeching ostrich, I suppose. The next morning, my husband came to me and said, “MaybeContinue reading “Anguish Squelched”

Wickedness Prevails

Doesn’t it seem sometimes that bad people get ahead? Doesn’t it appear that the injustices of this world grow each day instead of diminish? Why is that? I went to my mother and sister last month and asked for their help unearthing the bones of the murdered woman still buried on their property. These twoContinue reading “Wickedness Prevails”

The Iceberg

Justice seems nowhere. These crimes are committed daily and, for the most part, go unnoticed and unpunished. When victims raise their voice, they are mostly hushed. What happens as a result of society quietly unrecognizing these atrocities is that the victim takes on this added burden and questions what wrong they did. If you findContinue reading “The Iceberg”

Secret Endowments

An endowment is a donation of money or property to an organization, which uses the resulting investment for a specific purpose. In the world of incest and abuse, this is a daily occurrence. Secret endowments are given to our abusers every time an act of perversion is made against us. With their weapons, they haveContinue reading “Secret Endowments”

Daisies, Daffodils & Doubts

Doubting yourself is such a common theme among abuse survivors. It is not too difficult to understand why. The very foundation of abuse is built upon layers and layers of deceptive lies. A continuous stream of doubt is built into us by the predator’s crafty work. “You aren’t good enough to tell and have someoneContinue reading “Daisies, Daffodils & Doubts”