F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear success? I was a good daughter. To be a good daughter in the house I grew up in meant I had to allow myself to be brutalized – a lot. I had to accept that I was not loved and smile anyway. I had to hideContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear you are like your abuser? No! Most of us would say. But, let’s look closer. Do you hate them? Do you have them on a high pedestal of esteem through your active denial? I used to smoke. Not that much – about a pack a week.Continue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you feel like you are battling along in life alone? Incest is a lonely journey from the moment it touches your life. Who understands what has happened to you? Who do you tell? Who do you talk to about it? Usually, no one. And, that hurts. The messageContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — have you ever heard that perfect love drives out fear? In my early 20s, I began to explore the bible. I hated religion and I hated the god that my father taught me. But, I found that I needed something outside of myself. I decided I would throw awayContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~

Habakkuk’s Complaint 2 How long, Lord, must I call for help,    but you do not listen?Or cry out to you, “Violence!”    but you do not save?3 Why do you make me look at injustice?    Why do you tolerate wrongdoing? Habakkuk was a prophet in the Old Testament. He was tired of looking at people get away with violence and destruction. I findContinue reading “Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — do you fear God? For the majority of my life, I could only be a friend to Jesus. He taught me and I grew with him. Father God was an entirely different story. Terrified of the father I grew up with, I didn’t really want anything to do withContinue reading “F N’ F”

Kindness

On the discussion of kindness, I find myself at a loss. What is kindness and how does it differentiate itself from love? Here’s a definition I found: “Kindness – An attribute of God and quality desirable but not consistently found in humans.” When a person comes from a home that has mean people everywhere, howContinue reading “Kindness”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — I often wonder why bad people get good things. It makes me question what is good, what is reasonable, what is right. Is everything under the sun okay? Does anybody pay for their inappropriate actions? This makes me uneasy. This can cause fear. Oh, I trust God and IContinue reading “F N’ F”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Are you a perfectionist? Too strong of a statement? Ok — Do you carry a lot of eternal pressure? I have a lot of internal pressure I put on myself. Self-imposed perfection that I strive for. Self-imposed fear of failure and fear of disappointing others.Continue reading “F N’ F”

Justice ~ Where do I find it?

A murdered woman lays at the bottom of a pile of rubbish. Where do I find justice for her? My children’s father abused our children in ways no child should have to suffer through. Where do I find justice for them? In my own life, time and time again, I have been betrayed by theContinue reading “Justice ~ Where do I find it?”

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