Words of Widsom ~ Pedophiles Don’t Love You

I sat against the wall perched on my bed now in darkness. Mangled shadows danced all around me, mocking any peace I could try to find. I could not close my eyes to the monstrous darkness. I just could not. I simply stared at the door. Possibly in anticipation of someone coming to find me,Continue reading “Words of Widsom ~ Pedophiles Don’t Love You”

Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change

What better way to start a week, but with introsepection. Healing takes a mindset of growth. As a seed becomes a plant, there is visible change. The same was true in my life. The more I healed, the more everything started to look just a little bit different. Many of my relationships in life tookContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change”

Mirror Mirror ~ Words of Affirmation

Introspection, what better way to start a week. When you live in a home of incest, no piece of you lives free. You can’t talk about your feelings, you cannot discuss the abuse and your emotions must be hidden away from sight. No love in. No love out. No feelings. No discussion. You must liveContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Words of Affirmation”

Words of Widsom ~ Don’t Hide the Junk

We truly are as sick as our secrets. All I learned through my childhood abuse was, don’t tell, don’t talk — try not to remember. You think that works? Nope! “We played as children do. My brother and I were close – albeit with sexual overtones. We pretended and explored a lot together. This wasContinue reading “Words of Widsom ~ Don’t Hide the Junk”

Let Jesus Shut the Door to Your Pain

“My bathroom had now become the bathroom in the old motel room in ’68.  My mind’s eye flew open. The window of the memory had started with that body memory. I didn’t realize what my hand was telling me until I was instantly back in the motel room. Plain as day, I was there, again.Continue reading “Let Jesus Shut the Door to Your Pain”

Fear Not Friday | What am I afraid of?

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “What am I afraid of?“ There was a time in my life that I was just scared — all the time. Almost like fear sat over me like a cloud constantly raining. I didn’t know how to articulate the fear. From my birth it wasContinue reading “Fear Not Friday | What am I afraid of?”

Words of Widsom ~ I Don’t Live by the Rules of This Culture

Prejudice exists. I’m often judged and categorized for discussing my upbringing. It gets old. I’d be much more acceptable to them if I didn’t stand by my right to speak. Uncomfortable and unending, the opinions around me fly. Why don’t they be quiet? I didn’t ask them, did I? Unfortunately, this judgment and my shameContinue reading “Words of Widsom ~ I Don’t Live by the Rules of This Culture”

Fear Not Friday | Do You Fear God is Full of Punishment?

On the discussion of fear, do you see God sitting in heaven holding a big stick ready to punish you? Mercy and grace can be differentiated as follows: mercy is the act of withholding deserved punishment, while grace is the act of endowing unmerited favor. In His mercy, God does not give us the punishmentContinue reading “Fear Not Friday | Do You Fear God is Full of Punishment?”

Mirror Mirror | Peace

Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: How do you describe peace? Traversing childhood traumatic experiences leaves my soul wandering sometimes. It is as if it took all the stillness out of my being. Relearning? Relearn what? I was never taught anything about stillness. Sure, I had to sit still. I hadContinue reading “Mirror Mirror | Peace”

Fear Not Friday ~ Do you fear mystery?

As a child I lived more damaged days then good days. I did not like not knowing what was going to happen next. The next thing that was going to happen woulnd’t be good. I determined that as my rule of thumb. I’m not sure I ever really broke that rule of thumb, but I’mContinue reading “Fear Not Friday ~ Do you fear mystery?”

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