On the discussion of fear — what if Father God asked you, “Why do you fear me?“ I feared God for so many years. In ways, I still do. It is very hard to separate what I learned through my early years in a home of incest. I feared my earthly father greatly. My mom,Continue reading “F N’ F”
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F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “What am I afraid of?“ There was a time in my life that I was just scared — all the time. Almost like fear sat over me like a cloud constantly raining. I didn’t know how to articulate the fear. From my birth it wasContinue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Am I afraid to stand up for myself?“ My father beat all of my rights out of me. He made sure I had only privileges given by him — no rights. These are his actual words I heard over and over, “You have no rights!Continue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “what if I don’t know what my future holds?” The truth is do we ever really know what lies ahead of us? Do we need to know? Why is uncertainty so scary? I have what I need. Actually— I have more than I need. MyContinue reading “F N’ F”
Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~
Habakkuk’s Complaint 2 How long, Lord, must I call for help, but you do not listen?Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?3 Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrongdoing? Habakkuk was a prophet in the Old Testament. He was tired of looking at people get away with violence and destruction. I findContinue reading “Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — do you fear God? For the majority of my life, I could only be a friend to Jesus. He taught me and I grew with him. Father God was an entirely different story. Terrified of the father I grew up with, I didn’t really want anything to do withContinue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — I often wonder why bad people get good things. It makes me question what is good, what is reasonable, what is right. Is everything under the sun okay? Does anybody pay for their inappropriate actions? This makes me uneasy. This can cause fear. Oh, I trust God and IContinue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Are you a perfectionist? Too strong of a statement? Ok — Do you carry a lot of eternal pressure? I have a lot of internal pressure I put on myself. Self-imposed perfection that I strive for. Self-imposed fear of failure and fear of disappointing others.Continue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Do you feel eternally broken? I heard God say to me this morning, “You are not broken, Jodie. You are not lost. You are complete.” It took me aback. I teared up. The truth is I am complete in him. It changed the outlook ofContinue reading “F N’ F”
A Rebel Cry
I was taught that I had no rights, only privileges. My father spoke this over me time and time again. That’s a powerful weapon. I was taught I had no right to speak, eat, drink, laugh or play. Everything had to be given by him through a privilege. WTF! Right? I had to earn everythingContinue reading “A Rebel Cry”
A Prisoner By No Crime of My Own 