Being “special” is an act of manipulation that abusers use all the time. The special time together, the special bond you share, the special time you get — we can walk on in life and hold onto these special times. Or we can begin to decipher the hidden message of abuse. My father treated meContinue reading “Spoiled or Neglected”
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Isolation = Vulnerability
We need connection. Period. I know that people are the very thing that broke my world. When I couldn’t trust anyone, I trusted God. I have learned that isolating myself (which I was formerly very fond of) did nothing good for me. I may have perceived safety by being alone, but isolation is lonely andContinue reading “Isolation = Vulnerability”
Mirror Mirror ~ Who do you influence?
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: Who do you influence and who influences you? Coming from a lifestyle of trauma, I didn’t believe I influenced anybody. And, I didn’t believe anyone really influenced me. I couldn’t have been more wrong. The way I saw this fallen world was that there wereContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Who do you influence?”
Mirror Mirror ~ Who do you blame?
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: Who do you blame for the pain in your life? Pain is defined as “physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury.” Pain has a beginning. Does pain have an end? That’s an interesting question. I believe it does. Blame takes away accountability. JustContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Who do you blame?”
Mirror Mirror ~ Chasing Love
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: Do you chase a love that is not returned to you? Year upon grueling year I chased love. The love of friendship. The love of men. The love of my parents. The love of my children. The love of my siblings. The list could goContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Chasing Love”
Shut the Mouths of Liars
Lord, could you help us hush those that align against the innocent? Push back those that hurt the young. Lord, help us stop those that mock justice and continue in their sin. Push back those that hurt the young. Shut the mouths of those that mistreat and hurt, then stand in the assemblies of peopleContinue reading “Shut the Mouths of Liars”
Warring Alone
Coming through incest as a child, I fought alone. No one was beside me. Isn’t that the way it is for those of us that lived these tragedies? Who stood beside us? No one. Who protected us? No one. Did we learn the value of trust in our homes? I read I Corinthians 13 thisContinue reading “Warring Alone”
Love Does Not Conquer All
Sometimes, we have families to heal the legacy of our pasts. We date and marry to be loved into existence. But it never works. We know it doesn’t work. So why do we use the most innocent creatures on earth to try an achieve intactness? We have children as a continuation of a lie …Continue reading “Love Does Not Conquer All”
Dad, You Should’ve Just Told the Truth
My story could have played out differently. It could have been immediately filled with grace for him. At once, forgiveness could have sat with us at a holiday table. Instead, he lied. I became despised and abhorred by his family. They are no longer my family. As a survivor of his crimes, I struggled toContinue reading “Dad, You Should’ve Just Told the Truth”
A Spirit of Guilt
Guilt isn’t necessarily a result of something you’ve done wrong. It very well could be a result of something you’ve done right. What do I mean? I’ve told the truth so many times about my family of origin. Their misconduct and brutality has been uncovered. I sometimes carry guilt because of this. I know I’veContinue reading “A Spirit of Guilt”