I sat against the wall perched on my bed now in darkness. Mangled shadows danced all around me, mocking any peace I could try to find. I could not close my eyes to the monstrous darkness. I just could not. I simply stared at the door. Possibly in anticipation of someone coming to find me,Continue reading “Words of Widsom ~ Pedophiles Don’t Love You”
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Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change
What better way to start a week, but with introsepection. Healing takes a mindset of growth. As a seed becomes a plant, there is visible change. The same was true in my life. The more I healed, the more everything started to look just a little bit different. Many of my relationships in life tookContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change”
When Holidays are Hard
Exposing secrets can tear families apart. But hear me out, it can also bring them closer together. I’ve lost a lot of family members – pretty much all of them aside from my sister and mother. It’s been a long and lonely and painful road but there are so many upsides. It’s freed me upContinue reading “When Holidays are Hard”
Words of Widsom ~ Don’t Hide the Junk
We truly are as sick as our secrets. All I learned through my childhood abuse was, don’t tell, don’t talk — try not to remember. You think that works? Nope! “We played as children do. My brother and I were close – albeit with sexual overtones. We pretended and explored a lot together. This wasContinue reading “Words of Widsom ~ Don’t Hide the Junk”
Words of Widsom ~ I Don’t Live by the Rules of This Culture
Prejudice exists. I’m often judged and categorized for discussing my upbringing. It gets old. I’d be much more acceptable to them if I didn’t stand by my right to speak. Uncomfortable and unending, the opinions around me fly. Why don’t they be quiet? I didn’t ask them, did I? Unfortunately, this judgment and my shameContinue reading “Words of Widsom ~ I Don’t Live by the Rules of This Culture”
Fear Not Friday – Vulnerability
Brene Brown has gone into great lengths about the gift that vulnerability is. In her book, Daring Greatly, Brené Brown describes vulnerability as “uncertainty, risk, and emotional exposure.” In the life of a trauma survivor of deep childhood wounds, I pause at the notion that this is good for me. It’s like ripping off myContinue reading “Fear Not Friday – Vulnerability”
Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder
I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. A Jewel: Healing is truly a journey — not a destination. In other words, there is no end to getting and being better, right? So often I hear stories from victims of childhood sexual crimes and they are just at the beginning of openingContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”
Fear Not Friday | Do you fear those that choose darkness?
On the discussion of fear, I have a very healthy fear for those that delight in wrongdoing. Trust me when I say that there are many who like their choices of bad. They have no guilt but actually take pleasure in bringing and giving pain. Fear these folks! Nuff said.
Scars…
We all have them. Physical scars. Emotional scars. Spiritual scars. They represent having survived a harm that has been done, a damage inflicted, but they also represent a healing has occurred, don’t they? To have a scar is not so much about what you survived, as it is about how you have healed from an affliction,Continue reading “Scars…”
Mirror Mirror ~ How Do You See Yourself?
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: How would you describe yourself right now? The description I use for myself — to myself — determines how I am treated. In the not too distant past, I viewed myself with the lowlifes, the users, the drinkers, those that abuse themselves and others. NotContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ How Do You See Yourself?”