Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. When you are waiting for the birth of a child, the anticipation of “what you are waiting for” is the center of the experience. That’s an easier kind of waiting and the blessing gained through that waiting is tremendous. WhenContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Bonds with Mayhem

Legally speaking,┬ámayhem┬árefers to the gruesome crime of deliberately causing an injury that permanently disfigures another. Deliberately causing injury. These are the people I grew up with. It’s no stretch of the imagination to understand why I then picked this same bred to create new bonds with. It’s all I knew. Oh, I was bonded withContinue reading “Bonds with Mayhem”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Yesterday I took a walk down the same street I walked when I was five. The street led to my elementary school. By the time I was five, I had seen such treachery and been through so much abuse, I questioned yesterday whyContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Does Prince Charming Exist?

When I left the theatre, he was standing at the stage door, the handsomest man I’d ever seen. My heart missed a couple of beats. Honest, I knew the minute I laid eyes on him that this was going to be something in my life, something I’d been wanting a long, long, time. I closedContinue reading “Does Prince Charming Exist?”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: The courage God has given me to tell my stories is a gift beyond measure. On my journeys I meet so many that just cannot, or will not, confront their stories with the full, unadulterated truth. They erect a fantasy where the truthContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: I have been so lifted up this week looking at the beautiful family I have around me and sharing time with them, hearing their hearts and breathing in their love. Sometimes we focus on what we’ve lost in the fight to gain ourContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

Encoded with Predator DNA

What predator ever spoke true kindness to you? Which abuser made you feel good about yourself and worthy of good treatment? None that I had. Every single abuser that has come through my life wanted to discount who I was, make me feel inferior to them and ultimately believe I was not worthy of love.Continue reading “Encoded with Predator DNA”

Chaos & Confusion

Struggling to believe our memories seems to be a strong theme among survivors. The chaotic repercussion of not believing your mind is a serious thing. That event alone locks us into confusion. We’re fine to blame ourselves for our sexual promiscuity, for all the abusive relationships we’ve allowed and for all the maltreatment we’ve accostedContinue reading “Chaos & Confusion”

1,895 Days After the Murder

The fake family appears and makes headlines. My father murders on June 8, 1968 and we adopt this little boy and appear in the local paper on August 26, 1973. The riddle of my family couldn’t have been scripted. No person could have unraveled the demonic turmoil they hide. In this newspaper article, my motherContinue reading “1,895 Days After the Murder”

A Family Privilege

It is Thanksgiving tomorrow. The family I came through no longer sits at the same table with me. I like it that way but it took me a long time to get there. Meals spent growing up were absent of any comfort – the comfort of love. The first person to leave the table wasContinue reading “A Family Privilege”