Suicide and death are such a common theme among incest survivors. You know why? It’s all murder, that’s why. I only saw my father a handful of times after that. He had chosen deceit and the battle between us was on. About six months before this illness, I’d dreamt that my father was milling aboutContinue reading “WW | Words of Wisdom | Letting Go . . . of . . . D E A T H”
Tag Archives: introspective
WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | FAVOR
When I lived at home with my father, I was favored. His favor included being backhanded when I showed the slightest sign of disobedience, rape, sodomy and playing the game Risk. Oh, my family envied my favor with my father. You see, growing up in a home where the only attention you receive is abuse,Continue reading “WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | FAVOR”
Mirror Mirror ~ Pitch A Fit
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: Does my body belong to me or is it more of a public space? Coming through childhood sexual trauma wreaks havoc on our own personal space. We have none. If children grow up in such an environment, what do you suppose happens in later yearsContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Pitch A Fit”
Mirror Mirror ~ Disappointment
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Is disappointment the opposite of hope? Hope is a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen. Hope is a feeling of trust. What than is disappointment? It is sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations. So, disappointment is theContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Disappointment”
Mirror Mirror ~ Mothers Are Not Forever Faithful
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Are mother’s given too much leniency in cases of incest or childhood sexual crimes? Why do we offer quick mercy and tolerance to the mother’s that were in these homes? Year after year these women sit by these sick, abusive men and do nothing. Sure, theyContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Mothers Are Not Forever Faithful”
Mirror Mirror ~ Forgiveness
Introspection — what better way to start a week. What if forgiveness meant letting go? What if the act of forgiveness separated you from the person who harmed you? The very nature of forgiving to me means that I am now separate from the person who hurt me. I don’t see the world according toContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Forgiveness”
Mirror Mirror ~ Meditation
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Meditation, contemplation, thought – thinking, consideration — all fantastic words for the technique of mindfulness or focuses. Where you put your mind is where your focus will be. Do you focus on despair? You most likely will find it. Are you looking for calm and peace?Continue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Meditation”
Mirror Mirror ~ God’s Love Leads
Introspection — what better way to start a week. God’s love has brought me my deepest healing. I had to go to counselors for over 20 years to get my symptoms in order and understand them, but do you know what brought me to the understanding that I needed a counselor? God did. He guidedContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ God’s Love Leads”
Mirror Mirror ~ Anxiety & Worry
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question – Why does anxiety and worry follow the life of the abused person? Like a dripping faucet or a persistently cloudy day anxiety has riddled my life. It was one of the main reasons I got into counseling and stayed the course until it dissipated.Continue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Anxiety & Worry”
Mirror Mirror ~ What is Protection?
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question – When you receive no protection as a child, how do you know what it feels like? I can look up the meaning of protection and I understand what it means. But, my heart has a hard time discerning protection. When you don’t have aContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ What is Protection?”