I’m not here to write only about the part of my journey where I overcame everything and I now live fully victorious. If I wrote like that, I’d be lying. Does Nirvana really exist? I don’t think so. If it did, I don’t want it. I ordered Massaman Curry today. It was a dish myContinue reading “The Frailty of Being Human”
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“Few people have the imagination for reality.”
Quote from Johann Wolfgang von Goethe a German poet, playwright and novelist, considered the greatest German literary figure of the modern era. He died in 1832. The courage to see reality has been around a very long time. Memory screams for interpretation, so it seems. Or does it? And, who should give that interpretation? TheContinue reading ““Few people have the imagination for reality.””
Repentance ~ wHO, Me?
By definition repentance means sincere regret or remorse. Through healing I found myself looking more at my own actions more than looking at the actions of my abusers. It is the only way to heal. If it is the fault of everyone else, how do I have control over anything. Yes, my family did miserableContinue reading “Repentance ~ wHO, Me?”
Fear of Man/Woman/Persons
Fear with a capital “F” stays with survivors of incest. It was a gift given to us at breakfast, served with soup at lunch, and gluttonously given at the dinner table. Fear had to be consumed by us for these households to operate smoothly. We probably don’t believe that we operate from a fear perspective.Continue reading “Fear of Man/Woman/Persons”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — Which will you choose? Denial or proclamation? “The conflict between the will to deny horrible events and the will to proclaim them aloud is the central dialectic of psychological trauma.” Trauma and Recovery by Judith Lewis Herman
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — “Do you fear evil?“ You should, right? Well, not if you know the truth. Jesus came to defeat evil. Why is that important? Childhood trauma leaves an imprint of fear on the heart of a child. I feared just about everything when I left my parents’ home. It wasContinue reading “F N’ F”
Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder
Jewel: I am loved. Gem: I am loved. Metaphorical Gunpowder: Remind yourself today that you are loved! The little blonde girl on the left is now gone at 59. She was my childhood friend. I will miss her. She looked for love all of her life. Please remind yourself today that you are loved byContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — what if Father God asked you, “Why do you fear me?“ I feared God for so many years. In ways, I still do. It is very hard to separate what I learned through my early years in a home of incest. I feared my earthly father greatly. My mom,Continue reading “F N’ F”
F N’ F
On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “What am I afraid of?“ There was a time in my life that I was just scared — all the time. Almost like fear sat over me like a cloud constantly raining. I didn’t know how to articulate the fear. From my birth it wasContinue reading “F N’ F”
Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder
Sharing Saturday with you from the snowy mountains of Montana. Jewel: This week I had someone tell me how good natured I am. “Miracle,” I thought. I should not be coming through the horseshit I came thru. But I am. I think he was seeing all the work Jesus has done in me. Gem: IContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”