F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear throwing caution to the wind? If I had learned earlier in my life to do something without worrying about the risk or negative results I could have ended a lot of suffering in my life. What do I mean? I stayed in a bad marriage forContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear wealth? One definition for wealth is “plentiful supplies of a particular resource. ” I find that growing up with parents who took from me as a child and never gave left a belief in me that I will always have some sorrow and never have quit enough.Continue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

Forgiving Yourself

Coping, changing, unchanging — all of it is messy. Healing is messy. Living can be dangerous. Surviving formidible. I am still standing – after it all. Sometimes I have lived in a lane of peaceful healing, talk is good, forgiveness seems easy. Other times, I am not peaceful, I feel hateful inside, I dispise otherContinue reading “Forgiving Yourself”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear pleasure? Coming through childhood tragedy leaves the lessons of happiness, joy, pleasure — the good things in life, at a rare distance. It’s hard to find these things. The easiest of these to experience is probably pleasure. Pleasure is “a feeling of happy satisfaction and enjoyment.”Continue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear folly? The lack of good sense and foolishness scares me. I don’t like it. I don’t like it at all. My father was a man of folly. He lacked all good sense and every act he did was full of foolishness. As a result, I amContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear GOD? Coming through severe and chronic abuse, you bet I had a deep fear of God. Why wouldn’t I? Did God stop my father from raping me for years and years? Nope. Did God stop my mother from joining in the abuse? Nope? Did God stopContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear FEAR itself? If you have ever experienced a panic attack, you do not want to have them. They can be debilitating. When I feel that slight nudge coming over me that a panic attack is right around the corner, I get scared. That is how fearContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

Abandoned, But Not Forgotten

If I didn’t honor myself by returning to my past, and bringing vindication where I could, I would have been left abandoned. I would have abandoned myself. I had to force myself to remember me. Everything around me told me to stop seeking, stop turning over rocks. “Learn to live,” they would tell me. Didn’tContinue reading “Abandoned, But Not Forgotten”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear the abuse that happened to you makes you dirty? It is very hard to separate an act that was imposed on your body and an act that you control. That seems an easy separation, doesn’t it. If it is such an easy separation, why do soContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

Chatting about fear — If your abuser is not prosecuted, do you believe your story is still credible? Seldom are crimes against children prosecuted. If they are prosecuted, not all pedophiles or abusers are convicted. This leaves an incredible burden in the life of the victim. “I told my story and nothing happened.” I seeContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

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