F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Do you fear people?“ I feared everything about them — on the inside of my house, that is. Outside of the house, I was okay, well, kind of. People pleasing is fear. I was an ass-kisser for the early part of my life. I believed,Continue reading “F N’ F”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: For as long as I can remember, I have hated my mother. When I was old enough to choose, I chose hate. She hated me, too. These words are hard to share — not with you necessarily, but with myself. I don’t wantContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

It’s been a hard journey for me to find and believe in a Heavenly Father that loves, forgives, encourages, and believes in me. A father is supposed to protect. I had no experience with any of this. None — absolutely nothing from my father but murder, rape, and mayhem. How do I learn and reteachContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

I was reading an article by a great pastor this morning. He said, “Your biggest enemy probably isn’t who you think it is. It’s not Satan, and it’s not the world around you. Your biggest enemy is you.” How true this is for me. I fight despair, shame, guilt, uncontrolled thoughts, compulsions, fear, hopelessness, bitternessContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. Jewel: Regret! It’s a strong tool that can be used positively or negatively. Fear once dominated my life. As my ex-husband would tell me, “Jodie, you were afraid of everything.” Indeed, I was. Too scared to crawl away from an abusive marriage, me andContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”