F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — “Do you fear evil?“ You should, right? Well, not if you know the truth. Jesus came to defeat evil. Why is that important? Childhood trauma leaves an imprint of fear on the heart of a child. I feared just about everything when I left my parents’ home. It wasContinue reading “F N’ F”

Is Rejection the Real Culprit?

Pain, mercy, abuse – it’s all born out of rejection. When my father was dying he and I had a six-hour conversation. We talked about a lot. I asked him who hadn’t seen his pain. I pushed the question again, saying, “Dad, was it your mother who didn’t see your pain?” He looked down atContinue reading “Is Rejection the Real Culprit?”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — what if Father God asked you, “Why do you fear me?“ I feared God for so many years. In ways, I still do. It is very hard to separate what I learned through my early years in a home of incest. I feared my earthly father greatly. My mom,Continue reading “F N’ F”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “What am I afraid of?“ There was a time in my life that I was just scared — all the time. Almost like fear sat over me like a cloud constantly raining. I didn’t know how to articulate the fear. From my birth it wasContinue reading “F N’ F”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “Am I afraid to stand up for myself?“ My father beat all of my rights out of me. He made sure I had only privileges given by him — no rights. These are his actual words I heard over and over, “You have no rights!Continue reading “F N’ F”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “what if I don’t know what my future holds?” The truth is do we ever really know what lies ahead of us? Do we need to know? Why is uncertainty so scary? I have what I need. Actually— I have more than I need. MyContinue reading “F N’ F”

Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~

Habakkuk’s Complaint 2 How long, Lord, must I call for help,    but you do not listen?Or cry out to you, “Violence!”    but you do not save?3 Why do you make me look at injustice?    Why do you tolerate wrongdoing? Habakkuk was a prophet in the Old Testament. He was tired of looking at people get away with violence and destruction. I findContinue reading “Justice, Justice ~ When there is no Justice ~”

The Casualties of Having No Comfort

Abuse was the foundation of my suffering. The freeze that kept it steady was the lack of comfort I received. My parents had to be sociopaths of some kind or they would have seen the pain of their children. They would have noticed the night hours I was up in agony. They would have seenContinue reading “The Casualties of Having No Comfort”

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