Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change

What better way to start a week, but with introsepection. Healing takes a mindset of growth. As a seed becomes a plant, there is visible change. The same was true in my life. The more I healed, the more everything started to look just a little bit different. Many of my relationships in life tookContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ An Appetite for Change”

Fear Not Friday | On Rejection

On the discussion of fear, do you fear rejection? Loneliness envelops the person that has been rejected. Light shines dimly from the eyes. The soul mocks the inability to breathe. Oh, rejection, I have known you well. What is abuse if not the severest form of rejection? Jesus knew rejection. It’s pain leaves you disabledContinue reading “Fear Not Friday | On Rejection”

Let Jesus Shut the Door to Your Pain

“My bathroom had now become the bathroom in the old motel room in ’68.  My mind’s eye flew open. The window of the memory had started with that body memory. I didn’t realize what my hand was telling me until I was instantly back in the motel room. Plain as day, I was there, again.Continue reading “Let Jesus Shut the Door to Your Pain”

Words of Widsom | When My Best Isn’t Good Enough

I love knowing the God of the bible. He teaches me that I don’t have to “be enough.” That I don’t have to “be good.” That I am encouraged to cry, scream, break stuff if I need to. Why? So I don’t keep bottled up in me my confusion from the past, the hurt ofContinue reading “Words of Widsom | When My Best Isn’t Good Enough”

Lame, But Not Disabled

I entered adult life lame. I was weak and fell behind the others around me. I married my first husband at 18 to get away from my parents. He, of course, was a classic abuser and royal asshole. My attempts to keep myself and my children safe around him, never seemed to work. I wasContinue reading “Lame, But Not Disabled”

WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | Still Not Telling Your Story?

As a child, the first thing we learn when coming through childhood tragedies is to remain quiet. Don’t tell is the very first rule we are given. The problem is we did see, we did hear and we still didn’t tell. If we are ever going to change our pasts, we have to break theContinue reading “WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | Still Not Telling Your Story?”

WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | Birthed for Suffering?

There is a saying that “Jesus was born to die.” If Jesus was born to die, I was birthed to suffer. I don’t recall a day in my childhood that didn’t have suffering in it. Maybe I had moments where I enjoyed something – an ice cream, a bike ride, but there was always embeddedContinue reading “WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | Birthed for Suffering?”

WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | What Was Stolen from You?

When we learn to articiulate what our abuse took from us, we can grieve appropriately and begin to heal. If we sit in a muck of undiscovery, never articulating what we feel, we stay stuck, unhealed and a stranger to ourselves. Why discuss it? If you were a child when these sexual crimes happened toContinue reading “WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | What Was Stolen from You?”

Why Do You Get Your Past, But I Don’t Get Mine?

If people with good childhoods get to tell their story and hang onto their past, why don’t those of us with bad upbringings get the same privilege? Everyone around me gets the privilege of recalling & telling childhood memories – except for me. Everyone reminisces about the stuff that made them who they are –Continue reading “Why Do You Get Your Past, But I Don’t Get Mine?”

Words of Wisdom | Convicting the Guilty

Convict as a verb means to find or prove to be guilty. Usually this is in a court of law before a judge and jury. What if your case never makes if before a judge and jury? The lack of conviction is devastating in the life of victims. Most victims of childhood crimes rarely seekContinue reading “Words of Wisdom | Convicting the Guilty”

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