Many address childhood trauma as if it were the same as not having a prom date for your high school gala. This couldn’t be farther from the truth and adds insult to injury. There was a prophet in the Old Testament named Jeremiah. I love his words about God’s people who were being set upContinue reading “Casual Affair”
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Wrestling with My Thoughts
The endurance to out smart my intellection has been challenging. Since I was tiny, I over think everything. Every mood that stood next to me — every action. Everything I’ve done wrong — everything I’ve done right. This left no room for imagination. I didn’t have time for that nonsense. I had to survive. NowContinue reading “Wrestling with My Thoughts”
Run Alongside
Side stepping emotions never works. The eruption of thought most often ends with feeling — at least for me. Expressing emotion can be frustrating. Recalling a traumatic time can be thought about for years. Applying emotion to that thought may never happen. When it does happen, healing occurs and that thought will begin to dissipateContinue reading “Run Alongside”
Teacher, Teach Me
What if you had no teacher? No direction? No one to show you a good way? Welcome to the world of incest. Oh, I was taught as a child. Taught that lies are the same as truths. Facts don’t exist because they can be manipulated. Trust was earned through whole obedience to the master ofContinue reading “Teacher, Teach Me”
Love Does Not Conquer All
Sometimes, we have families to heal the legacy of our pasts. We date and marry to be loved into existence. But it never works. We know it doesn’t work. So why do we use the most innocent creatures on earth to try an achieve intactness? We have children as a continuation of a lie …Continue reading “Love Does Not Conquer All”
A Parent’s Peril
If a parent chooses not to look at and find their own pain, they will not and cannot see the pain of their child. If a parent chooses to ignore reality, they will ignore the reality of their child’s life, too. When you begin to explore your own pain, when you find the desire toContinue reading “A Parent’s Peril”
Cowering From Myself
What a wretched time healing can be. When I denied my pain, ran around ignoring myself, it seemed an easier path. Well, I know this isn’t really true, but dang! Getting to know myself and being fully aware of most of my whole story has felt cruel. I actually know there are parts and parcelsContinue reading “Cowering From Myself”
Teacher, Teach Me
What if you had no teacher? No direction? No one to show you a good way to go? Welcome to the world of incest. Oh, I was taught as a child. I was taught that lies are the same as truths. Facts don’t exist because they can be manipulated. Trust was earned through whole obedienceContinue reading “Teacher, Teach Me”
Unhealed Wounds
I wish I could give a bracelet of love to every human being that needs one. Some of us came from a territory that had no love in it. Unkept. Unwanted. Unloved. I wish I could just have kept the past hidden, away from the world’s view and, more importantly, away from my own view.Continue reading “Unhealed Wounds”
A Death Certificate
A certificate is an official document attesting a certain fact. Last night as I was falling asleep, I cried and chatted with the Lord. I conferred with Him that because the murdered woman in the ground has never been given a death certificate, I haven’t been able to grieve properly. I saw myself uncovering herContinue reading “A Death Certificate”
A Prisoner By No Crime of My Own 