F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear success? I was a good daughter. To be a good daughter in the house I grew up in meant I had to allow myself to be brutalized – a lot. I had to accept that I was not loved and smile anyway. I had to hideContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you fear you are like your abuser? No! Most of us would say. But, let’s look closer. Do you hate them? Do you have them on a high pedestal of esteem through your active denial? I used to smoke. Not that much – about a pack a week.Continue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — Do you feel like you are battling along in life alone? Incest is a lonely journey from the moment it touches your life. Who understands what has happened to you? Who do you tell? Who do you talk to about it? Usually, no one. And, that hurts. The messageContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)

On the discussion of fear — have you ever heard that perfect love drives out fear? In my early 20s, I began to explore the bible. I hated religion and I hated the god that my father taught me. But, I found that I needed something outside of myself. I decided I would throw awayContinue reading “F N’ F (Fear Not Friday)”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — “Do you fear evil?“ You should, right? Well, not if you know the truth. Jesus came to defeat evil. Why is that important? Childhood trauma leaves an imprint of fear on the heart of a child. I feared just about everything when I left my parents’ home. It wasContinue reading “F N’ F”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

Jewel: I am loved. Gem: I am loved. Metaphorical Gunpowder: Remind yourself today that you are loved! The little blonde girl on the left is now gone at 59. She was my childhood friend. I will miss her. She looked for love all of her life. Please remind yourself today that you are loved byContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — what if Father God asked you, “Why do you fear me?“ I feared God for so many years. In ways, I still do. It is very hard to separate what I learned through my early years in a home of incest. I feared my earthly father greatly. My mom,Continue reading “F N’ F”

F N’ F

On the discussion of fear — ask yourself this question: “What am I afraid of?“ There was a time in my life that I was just scared — all the time. Almost like fear sat over me like a cloud constantly raining. I didn’t know how to articulate the fear. From my birth it wasContinue reading “F N’ F”

Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder

Sharing Saturday with you from the snowy mountains of Montana. Jewel: This week I had someone tell me how good natured I am. “Miracle,” I thought. I should not be coming through the horseshit I came thru. But I am. I think he was seeing all the work Jesus has done in me. Gem: IContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”

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