I entered adult life lame. I was weak and fell behind the others around me. I married my first husband at 18 to get away from my parents. He, of course, was a classic abuser and royal asshole. My attempts to keep myself and my children safe around him, never seemed to work. I wasContinue reading “Lame, But Not Disabled”
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Mirror Mirror | Peace
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: How do you describe peace? Traversing childhood traumatic experiences leaves my soul wandering sometimes. It is as if it took all the stillness out of my being. Relearning? Relearn what? I was never taught anything about stillness. Sure, I had to sit still. I hadContinue reading “Mirror Mirror | Peace”
Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder
I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. A Jewel: Healing is truly a journey — not a destination. In other words, there is no end to getting and being better, right? So often I hear stories from victims of childhood sexual crimes and they are just at the beginning of openingContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”
Scars…
We all have them. Physical scars. Emotional scars. Spiritual scars. They represent having survived a harm that has been done, a damage inflicted, but they also represent a healing has occurred, don’t they? To have a scar is not so much about what you survived, as it is about how you have healed from an affliction,Continue reading “Scars…”
WW | Words of Wisdom | Letting Go . . . of . . . D E A T H
Suicide and death are such a common theme among incest survivors. You know why? It’s all murder, that’s why. I only saw my father a handful of times after that. He had chosen deceit and the battle between us was on. About six months before this illness, I’d dreamt that my father was milling aboutContinue reading “WW | Words of Wisdom | Letting Go . . . of . . . D E A T H”
Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder
I would love to hear from you! Sharing Saturday with you. A Jewel: I hold no contempt for my family of origin. I do not feel they are beneath me, worthless or deserve scorn. Living by them in childhood I knew something even then — they were prisoners to desires they could not control. TheyContinue reading “Jewels, Gems & Gunpowder”
WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | FAVOR
When I lived at home with my father, I was favored. His favor included being backhanded when I showed the slightest sign of disobedience, rape, sodomy and playing the game Risk. Oh, my family envied my favor with my father. You see, growing up in a home where the only attention you receive is abuse,Continue reading “WWW | Wednesday Words of Wisdom | FAVOR”
Mirror Mirror ~ Pitch A Fit
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Question: Does my body belong to me or is it more of a public space? Coming through childhood sexual trauma wreaks havoc on our own personal space. We have none. If children grow up in such an environment, what do you suppose happens in later yearsContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Pitch A Fit”
It’s Deeper Than Your Mind
Mirror Mirror ~ Disappointment
Introspection — what better way to start a week. Is disappointment the opposite of hope? Hope is a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen. Hope is a feeling of trust. What than is disappointment? It is sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations. So, disappointment is theContinue reading “Mirror Mirror ~ Disappointment”