Fear Not Friday | On Rejection

On the discussion of fear, do you fear rejection? Loneliness envelops the person that has been rejected. Light shines dimly from the eyes. The soul mocks the inability to breathe. Oh, rejection, I have known you well. What is abuse if not the severest form of rejection? Jesus knew rejection. It’s pain leaves you disabledContinue reading “Fear Not Friday | On Rejection”

To the Dreary, Dead & Doubtful on this Father’s Day

May I first extend my prayer of love to you. I have known better the dread of Father’s Day than I have known anything else. I hate both Mother’s Day and Father’s Day, but I always try to unlearn and retrain myself. The kindest gift my earthy father ever gave me was his death. HisContinue reading “To the Dreary, Dead & Doubtful on this Father’s Day”

Life’s Delicate Balance

I can have anger and not hate. I can love and not forgive. I can forgive and leave. The older I get the more I realize that life is about balance. Coming thru such severe childhood trauma I often get stuck in an off-balance kind of place — everything is good or everything is bad.Continue reading “Life’s Delicate Balance”

Comfort ~ How Do You Find Comfort?

Pain and fear are two separate things. I can fear pain, pain can create fear, but they are separate. Pain and fear have been in my life longer than anything else. Love and living a pain-free live — that’s relatively new. Comfort has a few definitions: One comfort is for our flesh and bones. TheContinue reading “Comfort ~ How Do You Find Comfort?”

Controlled Anger

Tears have streamed down my face as I’ve been offered let down after let down in life. Example: My oldest daughter is hit in the face by her father. The police come and arrest him. During the interview, she tells the police officer and later child protective services that her father sexually abused her. Outcome:Continue reading “Controlled Anger”

Perishing in Despair

Childhood sexual abuse sucks the life from your bones. It lives under cover but it’s current is strong. The devastation it leaves in the children who are now grown is a brutal reality of what happened yesterday. You can run from it, but I guarantee you — you can’t hide. That is just the truthContinue reading “Perishing in Despair”

Anguish

Anguish is pain that cannot be quenched. Anguish seeks its own desire — it wants the pain to stop. Anguish unrelenting speaks its voice of frustration against the lack of justice. Anguish is its name. The dark fury that rises from pain. Pain that has lasted decades upon decades. Anguish is the result of lasting,Continue reading “Anguish”

Comfort

Imagine with me a victim that has lost their teeth. Their shame and pain would show, wouldn’t it? How much we all hide. We hide behind fake stories. We put on a distant smile. We cover our pain with fake hair, fake nails, and whatever else we can buy. If someone had the ability toContinue reading “Comfort”

On Rejection

Loneliness envelops the person that has been rejected. Light shines dimly from their eyes. The gathering of their soul mocks the ability to breathe. Oh, rejection, I’ve known it well. What is abuse if not the severest form of rejection? Even Jesus cried out on the cross, “My God, My God, why have you forsakenContinue reading “On Rejection”

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