A Casual Critic

When will my internal dialogue be good to me? If I spoke to others the way I sometimes speak to myself, I wouldn’t have very many friends. Do I call others fat? Do I tell other people they’re not good enough? How many times have I questioned the validity of another person’s dreams, hopes andContinue reading “A Casual Critic”

Distorted & Displaced

Where is home? What is home? The more I heal, the more I seem to feel displaced. When I lived in the streams of denial, life seemed more pleasant – I think. At least I could pretend. I don’t pretend today and that makes me feel like a fish out of water. It’s like IContinue reading “Distorted & Displaced”

Stay Comfortable

If this were to be my mantra, I’d never heal. Ever! Stay comfortable no good counselor would suggest. Comfortably numb, skills of denial, disassociation – these are my tools of comfortable. Peace is another thing. Peace is something you gain in the midst of the uncomfortable. But, what does comfortable really mean? The definition ofContinue reading “Stay Comfortable”

Am I, “All Done?”

Healing in our humanity is more of a journey than a destination. Sure, I can be done, if I choose to be done. Or, can I? Each time I cross another milestone and regain another piece of my inner structure back, I think to myself, “this time, I think I might be done with allContinue reading “Am I, “All Done?””

The Police, The Grave, The Accomplice

In my last YouTube post, Part IV, explores the Vancouver Police Department involvement, the attempted excavation of the dumpsite where the murdered woman’s body is still buried and a recording of my visit to the accomplice. You can find the video series here: https://youtu.be/dX1nwDUP0mc. The conversation with this accomplice is frightening to hear. Join meContinue reading “The Police, The Grave, The Accomplice”

Regaining Your Experience

Don’t talk. Don’t tell. Don’t remember. This seems to be a constant reminder to adult’s who have experienced childhood trauma. They want to let their abusers live out their lives unnoticed or unaffected by their crimes. This saddens me deeply. The only way to regain those parts of ourselves that were stolen by the perpetratorsContinue reading “Regaining Your Experience”

A Puritanical Lead

The book the Scarlet Letter really says it all. The novel tells the story of Hester Prynne, a woman who conceives a daughter through an affair and then struggles to create a new life of repentance and dignity. Hypothetically, it shows the estranged woman redeeming herself through her silence. By paying for her sin throughContinue reading “A Puritanical Lead”