One of the hardest parts of healing (and recovery) is trusting the process. Sometimes I get used to feeling so good that when negative emotions or anxiety creep in, I feel immediately frightened. After all, these very same emotions would’ve put me into a tailspin in the past or caused me to use drugs or any other number of destructive activities.
Allowing the experience to be there, just as it is, is not an easy task for anyone. But it’s especially hard for people who have been severely wounded in the past, who have come to distrust not only others but themselves as well.
Direction is more important than both speed and the placement of your feet. You have all the light you need for today, and tomorrow’s light will be given to you then. What you need comes through you when you need it most, not a moment sooner or later than it’s meant to.
You don’t need to understand the bigger plan or control everything, just make space for it all to unfold.
God has your back.
First and foremost, you are a child of God. You’re trying to make sense of the stars in you, and it’s a hard thing to do. You don’t need to understand why things happen or how you’ll ever feel better again. You can be confused, and be okay with being confused.
That acceptance happens one breath at a time. That’s your power.