Introspection — what better way to start a week.
Question – What do you NOT forgive yourself for?
A journal entry of mine from December 17, 2006:
Wasted days and wasted nights is the song that jollies my mind tonight. Little Miss Going Out Needing Attention Too Much! I have got to chill. Hide away and rest.
Personal journal
The road to healing and discovery is not an easy one. Had I turned off the road, I would have been lost, stuck, and failed. It was a messy journey and still is sometimes.
Do I forgive myself for all the choices I’ve made through the years? I wonder. The married men I slept with, the wasted nights I spent chasing misery because I hadn’t walked through forgiveness and was full of anger.
I’ve carried shame about my own choices, too. Not just the shame from my upbringing. There is a cost to the run.
I had to choose to never stop trying to make better choices.
What do you hold against yourself today?