Do You Feel Laughed At?

Entry from my journal dated May 24, 2006:

The day is undetermined. The future echoes the same. Where will I be in 15years. Answers undetermined. Mine not yet to know.
Will I prevail in a lawsuit against Cathy? Or silently do I subside into the side shadows. Unknown.

I wrote those words 16 years, 9 months, 7 days ago. Wow! So much has happened during these years. On this day I hadn’t seen much victory. It seemed they all laughed at me when I said I was going to tell the truth, stand up and make them pay for their actions.

I did prevail in the lawsuit against a former attorney I worked with, turned sister-in-law. It was a success. I didn’t know it would be the day I wrote these words but I won!

I have had so many victories through these last 16 years and failures as well. When I wrote this I had just left the first firm I worked for as a legal assistant. Today, I am leaving my third firm as a Director of Professional Development & Training. That is quite an accomplishment. All the while conducting an investigation into myself. Digging through the murder, trying to fix and heal all of it.

You can do it too!

I will be celebrating my fifth wedding anniversary to a wonderful husband on March 10. I heard God call me to move to a new state away from where are all the crime occurred. Today, I wake up happy. Truly at rest for maybe the first time in my life.

16 years, 9 months, and 7 days! Wow…thank you Father, I never dreamed I would be where I am today. You have guided me, talked to me, set me free from so many things – I want to tell you thank you.

If you believe your abusers are winning, think again! Stand with God. He will show you the path, illuminate for you your future, and walk you through the pain of healing your past into victory.

Do not believe the mockers. They lose every time. I have lived it.

Published by Gracedxoxo

I have the courage to tell my story to help others embrace theirs.

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