On the discussion of fear — Do you fear what your heart is carrying?
Being abused my entire childhood left a sense of wonder in me. I wonder all kinds of things. What would it feel like to have been a loved child? What would it have felt like to be covered up, tucked in peacefully, and not disturbed through the night.
Wonder…..it is a good thing.
I also wonder what damage lingers in my heart. Do I hold bitterness? Am I jealous of the one that came from love? Do I envy?
What is in my heart determines the steps of my life. I focus on this a lot. There is this cool scripture where Jesus is talking to the religious people in his time. He didn’t like them much. In Matthew 15, Jesus was speaking to a crowd and said,
This tells me to constantly check in with what my heart is carrying and not to be as concerned with what goes “into my mouth.”
If that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, let’s see how Jesus explained it:
So, I am right to be concerned with what my heart is carrying. It matters. It alone can change the course of my life.
I see people worry about drugs, smoking, alcohol — all things that go into a body. What if we instead focused on the heart. What is going on in the heart? The question that Jesus would ask.
Now, I ask you again, do you fear what your heart is carrying?