Sharing Saturday with you from the snowy mountains of Montana. This is my Sheepadoodle — Jax. A true gift from God and a love in my life!
Jewel: My life has truly been more of a battle than a journey. Incest is a war — a war on children. A war I faced. Only the brave warrior survives it.
I was thanking God with tears in my eyes this morning that my heart is finally at rest. The pain has truly subsided — it is has taken years. Flashbacks have haunted my life even before I left my abusers. Sometimes I still have flashbacks — suddenly, without warning — a dark echo eerily finds my mind.
It’s not easy to live with the truth of my past. Murder, rape and mayhem of the evil dimension I came through finds its way into my present — I still must stay vigilant. I know why so many people deny what they came through. It’s tortuous to know! But, I know one thing — it’s the only road to true happiness and eternal joy.
Gem: When I started my healing journey in earnest I was 35 years old and had just left a horribly, abusive marriage. Today, I am 58. That’s only a 23 year journey — far less than the abusive chaos I’d been in until 35.
What you choose matters. You are the only one that can find your truth, look at the damage around you and say — “Enough! I am all done with this horseshit. I am going to do something about it.”
That is the first step to change. Seeing the need.
Metaphorical Gunpowder: Meeting Jesus deposited the hope I would need to survive the tremendous loss and pain I came through. Without HOPE I would have been eternally lost to the damnation and shame the abuse had carved into every crevice of my being.
Today, I am not lost. I have been found!
I was terrified when I heard God call me to leave my home state, my children and grandchildren, and move to Montana. The joy, peace, and love that I have found here has been beyond anything I had hoped for in life.
Trust God when you hear Him nudge you. Listen to his voice. It will heal what you cannot.
All blessings and love!