How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?
Psalms 13
How long will you hide your face from me?
2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
There was a time in my life where my abusers had the upper hand and lorded that over me. They built a file against me and presented that file to the supervising officer of the murder investigation.
They pleaded with anyone who would listen that I had a mental illness. I thought they’d never tire of fighting against me, but eventually they did.
What I hadn’t realized through the process was that God was building my own safety net around me and my children.
We have all read the term “honeycomb” in reference to bees. But, what is it and why is it so important to honey bees. Honeycomb is sheets of beeswax made from thousands of individual hexagonal cells. These individual cells make up the inside structure of the beehive. It is their home.
Honeycomb is beeswax. Beeswax is a natural wax secreted from special glands on the abdomen of worker honey bees. Worker honey bees have eight wax glands located on the underside of their abdomen. These glands produce scales of wax (small slivers) after the bee engorges herself on honey.
You see, the honey bee has everything they need inside them to build their home and protect their young.
That’s such a beautiful thing.
My internal being feels much like sheets of beeswax turned into a beautiful colony of protection. God is so good. Whilst I was being insulted, slandered and accosted by the words of my abusers (my family), God was building an internal, impenetrable strength in me.
He had not forgotten me as sometimes my heart felt. He was building honeycomb!