I think we all would like to believe we are no longer in collusion with our abusers. That can only be true when we’ve stopped the secretive cooperation with them. This deceitful agreement we have with them keeps us quiet.
I knew when I was no longer in collusion with my family. It was when I decided to open my mouth and start seeking out the road to my story.
I firmly believe that we are only out of collusion with these enemies of our soul when we break the bond shared between us: the covenant of silence.
Don’t talk. Don’t tell. Don’t believe yourself.
The code of honor between me and all of my abusers weakened tremendously as I used my voice against them. Does that sounds harsh? To use your voice against them? Or does the very thought of someone else sitting next to you in your pain make breaking the silence intolerable for you?
Crack the code and tell someone your story.
You deserve that way more than you deserve silent suffering, living in pretense and staying in collusion with your abuser.
Go after your dreams!
I wonder if I am still in collusion. I’ve wanted to share my blog on my Facebook but I don’t want everyone knowing what my father has done and that my mother chose to stay with him. I worry they will be judged or cut off by family and friends. Yet they did not care about my peace of mind growing up.
Oh love – I so completely understand. They most likely will not stand with you. Stand anyway! God loves you more than you can know. He cares deeply about your story and wants you to be free. U C U – by allowing God to come along side us and help us see ourselves, we take our focus off of our abusers. Sadly, we did not receive what we needed from our family. Most likely, they can never bring to you what you need through validation and unconditional love. GOD CAN AND DOES my sweet friend. Hang in there. I’ll stay here and do my best to guide ours journeys until we get to return to the One we came from. All love xoxoxoxo
Thank you for your kind words Jodie! God bless you!