When I was a teenager, I heard the other girls talking about what kind of house they would live in, if it would have a fence or not and when they thought they’d be married.
I had no such notions. I just needed to get out of my parents’ home alive.
All through the years, I’ve met people who, in their conceit, have made me feel less than. Let me clarify that: they dream of feats and desire a success that I just didn’t have time to find.
Yet, that is.
I met a nuclear physicist once and I heard him say, “Every child in kindergarten had the same advantage I did.” I took that man to task when I offered that some children had to dig out of a 750 foot hole just to get dressed in the morning. The amount of effort these children spent just surviving, left less than nothing to expend on anything else.
Such dreams as excelling in school or determining what you wanted to be when you grew up, was no where in my small dismal world.
But, the onlookers and bystanders would judge me time and time again.
“Where’s your saving’s account,” they’d mock. “You had better be thinking about retirement,” their bullshit would continue.
I wanted to scream, “Do you have any idea what it takes to be me?” I don’t have time for such trivial stuff.
“I am in this life just trying to survive,” my mind would scream in retort! The fear that invaded my nights and the terror that was the persuasive guide of my days.
Oh, I envied their plight. I wanted to be like them.
And then God taught me an important thing. He said to me, “Thank you for your courage.”
I am good enough. I am successful but I will never arrive. As they say, Life is a journey, not a destination.
10 thoughts on “Vain & Empty Success”
I don’t why I love everything about you. Your courage…everything motivates me. You’re truly a trail blazer, Ma’am. God bless you!
Such kindness. Thank you and God bless you!
I feel this way too. That for some, it takes everything to survive the day. I’ve known this too.xo
Darn, huh? It’s tough and then we just keep going. Loves xoxoxo
Inspiring post Jodie. I know how difficult it is just to get out of bed and put one foot on the floor. And yes, life is a journey, it’s just longer and harder for some than others.
Unfortunately yes it is harder for some. Have the best day you can xoxoxo
You too my lovely x
Unfortunately, many of those girls talking such nonsense to you back then probably didn’t do as well as they hoped. In school, everything is about appearances and popularity goes to the ones who put on the biggest front. You were real and God has your back, sweetie! Sending love to you! <3
These empty words didn’t stop after high school. Quite the opposite, for those without courage it’s still a product of their mouth and lives. Thanks for commenting, Cherie! And your words are true.
You’re welcome, sweetie! And you’re so right! I think they’re only jealous of the people they bully and secretly wish they could be like them.